Released in 2005 and considered a complete departure from all my previous work, Lemonymous was an experimental album that fused a wide range of influences, from U2 to Passengers, Smashing Pumpkins to Bowie (for starters), and featured entirely instrumental tracks (some dancy, some meditative) up against more conventional pop pieces. It was full of vibrant colors, soaring sonic sounds and infinite textures.
In 2015, the album was remixed and remastered for release on digital platforms (iTunes, Spotify, Amazon, Google Play etc) and as a physical CD with a brand-new 16 page full color booklet and fold out wallet, just as had always been intended. It was accompanied by a brand new companion CD of remixes, alternate takes and acoustic versions called Lemonymix.
"I quite like being able to look back and see not only where I succeeded but also where I fell flat on my face."
Release Date: March 15, 2005 | Reissue Date: September 29, 2015
Walking down the stairway
Just to find a place to hide
Down down the stairway
I'm all alone
I don't try
And I don't mind
I'm going blind
Can anybody find me?
To the touch of one
The touch of some
That's all we ever want to be
To the touch of one
The touch of none
That's all we ever are
Dirty Bird
You don't cry
Dirty bird
You don't lie
Dirty bird
You don't know why
August
Always heading for a fall
You say you've finally found
What was underneath it all
Honest
When you haven't got a chance
You would do anything
In any circumstance
Faceless
You do what you like
You find no consequence
In the crashing of the night
Winding in circles
You break everyone you can
Just tilt your head back
Swallow down this slight of hand
Hey now just keep your head up baby
Hey now you know the horizon's in sight
Silence
The calm within your greed
Strangled in the heat
Of your own blasphemy
There's no labor
No fruits you can enjoy
By no means lucious
There's no way you can fullfill this heart
Hey now just keep your head up baby
Hey now you know the horizon's in sight
And I promise you I'll be here when it's over
If you only knew the words I'd let you go
And you wake into the night
And you save my soul
And you break through more than ice
Like you did before
And you slay the old disguise
And you make us whole
And you wade into the tide
Where I save it all
For you, Child
Limb from broken limb
Stripped of all intent
And the colors of your sins
But there's no anger
No solitude inside
To keep you company
When you're blind
Hey now just keep your head up baby
Hey now you know the horizon's in sight
And I promise you I'll be here when it's over
If you only knew the words I'd let you go
And you wake into the night
And you save my soul
And you break through more than ice
Like you did before
And you slay the old disguise
And you make us whole
And you wade into the tide
Where I save it all
For you, Child
We're almost home
No one can take that away from us, Child
Through sleet and snow
They can lay the blame
Don't look around
You know they're right behind us
Don't fear the sound
We're everywhere in between
Don't look away
Those tears today
Could give us all tomorrow's lies
You can see the chaos I foretold
Day begs the night
Just to give him one more hour
Gray turns to white
As her colors fade away
Great mountains easily
Reveal my shame
We'll always wonder
We'll always wonder why
Stay like a dream
You know you are so lovely
Wave like the sea
You know you are so lovely
Love begs the night
Just to give him one more chance
Drowned in her fire
As her colors fade away
Red oceans feed
The greed between her eyes
She'll always slumber
Forever slumber
Stay like a dream
You know you are so lovely
Wave like the seas
You know you are so lovely
And this is overcast
It's over fast
You know I won't let go
Yeah so in the rain
So overplayed
You know I'm wanting
Stay like a dream
You know you are so lovely
Wave like the seas
You know you are so lovely
Home away from home
Home away from home
Welcome home
To the scarlet of the dawn
You tell me to behave
When you're the one who's done me wrong
My girl
My love
Let's kiss
Does it even matter
Whose wrong or right it is
Well who could dare to leave you
Or is there something that I've missed?
My Girl
My Love
Let's Kiss
Baby I'm torn
Between the when's and the why's
What is love?
What is faith?
What of truth?
And of lies?
To weather the storm
In the darkness of your eyes
To get lost
In the tide
When rivers
Start to cry
An old opinion
That's run out of steam
Dare I take this hand
While I dance you through a dream?
My girl
My love
Let's kiss
Honey if my love
Is a shield for your crime
Then you lose
When you win
Babe it happens
All the time
Baby if your heart
Is a shield for your tale
Makes it hard
To hold on
When our love
Turns stale
Once upon a time
In the scarlet of your eyes
Our souls were set alight
Like two doves intertwined
My Girl
My Love
Let's Kiss
My Girl
My Love
Let's Kiss
What dream is this?
The way has gotten cold
The tracks have covered over
What seems as bliss
Is nothing but catastrophe
The chaos that you left me with
What tears your heart
It beats you down
It leaves you more than scars
It leaves you in the dark
Where do you go
When that fire isn't there?
Who do you call
When no one understands?
What shakes your hands
It often shakes the soul
The rock has been turned over
What ties the knot
Will keep you from the moments
And everything you think you are
What loosed the tongue
And bites the lip
Will leave you more than scars
Assembled in the stars
Where do you go
When that fire isn’t there?
Who do you call
When no one understands?
Tell me
What is left
The night is in despair
When you wake up
Hold on
You know you’re almost there
We can in time
So can't I
Maybe in time
So can't I
We can in time
So Can't I
Maybe in time
Maybe
Fate can let you down
Break without a sound
Burn you to the ground
And like a cruel hangover
It won't leave you alone
Fate can cross the line
Faded over time
Great, but never fine
You find its consequences
On the road home
Your melancholy's got me up against the wall
And this direction is bereft of any sense at all
Fate can be your man
Bate you in its plan
Take you hand in hand
And with a cruel dismissal
Leave you naked and bare
Fate is pure of greed
...?
Break you to your knees
And when you fall to the ground
You'd better stay there
Your melancholy's got me up against the wall
And this direction is bereft of any sense at all
And when tomorrow breaks you'll see that I don't care
You look my way and you will see there's no one there
Your melancholy's got me up against the wall
And this direction is bereft of any sense at all
From what I hear
You would do anything
Well nothing's changed
You won't give up on me
Well I won't lie
If I could see the way out
Well I won't try
To be anything
Anything you feel
And I feel a love so true
But then a wish could never do
It's just a beautiful reflection of you
When I've nothing to cling to
When you're all alone
No one says you're different
When you're all alone
No one puts you down
From what I cared for
To what I'd lost
Is it enough to dream on
No matter what the cost?
We always try
To love everyone
You know
You know
I'd cry if these tears would be enough
I could feel the sky turn blue
As if a wish could never do
It's just a beautiful reflection of you
What would I be without you?
When you're all alone
No one says you're different
When you're all alone
No one puts you down
The eclectic 2005 album!
RELEASED March 15, 2005
Tracklisting
Lemonymous was actually the working title for the album that eventually became 2001’s Neon Apocalypse. Even the “Evil Lemon” was originally intended for that release.
The album was originally released exclusively through CafePress.
“Hide And Seek” was the first song being developed for the album as early as 2003, almost immediately after the release of that year’s Scarlet Dawn.
“Manipulation Under Stress” is the final incarnation of a song that first appeared on the Lemon Tea demo in 1998 (as “Goodbye”) and again on the 1999 demo The Ender of Something Beautiful. In both versions, it was more reminiscent of garage rock.
“My Girl, My Love, Let’s Kiss” was written for the Julia of Neon Apocalypse‘s “Julia”, taken from the writing on the first three Valentine’s heart candies that Ender pulled out of a bag, in February of 1999. It went through various re-writes and was intended as a Frank Sinatra song until it was finalized as it appears here. It was originally intended for 2003’s Scarlet Dawn, as the line “Welcome home to the scarlet of the dawn” attests.
“Not For Lack of Trying” was taken from a piece of digital music Ender produced in 1999, revisited and expanded upon here with lyrics and additional parts. This is the same for “Autumn” (apart from it not having any lyrics).
“Fate” was an experiment built off of a built-in song style on Ender’s Yamaha keyboard.
“Alive” was originally written in 1998, but never found a true home until it was recorded for this album.
“Reverse Psychology” was so named because it was built backwards – the last third was recorded and arranged first, then the middle, then the beginning.